Loss from a Distance

Although not close personally; it feels all too close to home. Too close for comfort.

I got word today that a co-worker lost her 3-year old last night. My first emotion was anger. "It's not fair" I said to my manager as she attempted to brace me before an email was to be sent out to our team.

I have followed little Emerson's Caring Bridge site the day I came across it; a week after we found out about Elijah's condition.

In a way, I lived, and cheered on the sidelines, for Elijah through Emerson. He didn't run the race like Emerson did; was never given the chance. I feel like I have failed him for not opting to provide breathing tubes and extreme life saving measures. I was so blinded by medical terms and doctors. I was so numb I couldn't even feel love for myself.

I am going to keep this short. I just really don't have very many words right now.

Please pass and share Emerson's Caring Bridge site and provide as many prayers as one can possibly pray.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/emersonm


"A thousand words cannot bring you back; I know because I tried. And neither can a million tears. I know because I cried." - Author Unknown


Baby Elijah - Mommy thinks of you every day. I miss you....